my biggest wish, is to live in Japan..

after browsing,or rather reading and analysing 'Brides', i'm seriously thinking i should heck all my worries and muster all my courage to make fashion designing my bread.
besides, what inspired and excite me to do this is the fantasy that, who knows,
I WANT TO DESIGN MY OWN WEDDING GOWNS!!!!!:):)

since picking nafa or sim both making me feel so bad and unsure, maybe i should just work.earn some damn bloody money and start leading a life.

today we had one of our worst dates ever.
i know this same thing hounding us isn't getting any better.it's to the point where tears well up, and i fight it back, then feel the pain and tried to ignore.
i don't feel as tiring as the numerous times before this.
rather i feel the ache stronger.
when we feel like strangers,
when we behave like strangers,
when our problems never get solved and with each time,
the urge to try gets lesser,
and the hurt gets heavier.

i really hate it when we look like strangers, when we behave like strangers, and hate it more when we behave like strangers.
i don't get to see your backview often,
not the negative way.
but when i do, i really hate it.
even when you're just in front of me,
i feel like i won't be able to reach you.

and when you're so important to me,
it's not a joke anymore.

i want to do away with all these, the same old thing that makes us strangers,
yet i can't convince myself to.
if i really do that,
i feel like i'm not being myself,
and not being honest with you.
it matters.
you matter.

i really feel like, i want to lead my life with you.

i will never forget the time you won the title,gave me hopes and brought me happiness until this day.baoc pegeant day,mr ba title,are our starts and just looking at us then in the picture makes my heart melt and falling for you all over again.ilu baby.:)

dear gums,

i know it's probably going to be really tough on you tmr. but bear with it alright. if i had a choice i wouldn't want you guys to go through such pain and torture too. likewise for myself. but i guess, we can't really choose to get out of this deal. i'm freaking out now and i'm sure you guys are too.really sorry if the dentist starts hurting you tmr. my jaws and cheeks will swell up and i will hurt like crazy also. i wonder how painful is pain. and how swollen is swollen.=( i hope you will heal really quickly so that we'll both be happy really soon okay. i hope too the stuff i eat or put in my mouth won't hurt you too much either.=(

my biggest wish, is to live in Japan..

after browsing,or rather reading and analysing 'Brides', i'm seriously thinking i should heck all my worries and muster all my courage to make fashion designing my bread.
besides, what inspired and excite me to do this is the fantasy that, who knows,
I WANT TO DESIGN MY OWN WEDDING GOWNS!!!!!:):)

since picking nafa or sim both making me feel so bad and unsure, maybe i should just work.earn some damn bloody money and start leading a life.

today we had one of our worst dates ever.
i know this same thing hounding us isn't getting any better.it's to the point where tears well up, and i fight it back, then feel the pain and tried to ignore.
i don't feel as tiring as the numerous times before this.
rather i feel the ache stronger.
when we feel like strangers,
when we behave like strangers,
when our problems never get solved and with each time,
the urge to try gets lesser,
and the hurt gets heavier.

i really hate it when we look like strangers, when we behave like strangers, and hate it more when we behave like strangers.
i don't get to see your backview often,
not the negative way.
but when i do, i really hate it.
even when you're just in front of me,
i feel like i won't be able to reach you.

and when you're so important to me,
it's not a joke anymore.

i want to do away with all these, the same old thing that makes us strangers,
yet i can't convince myself to.
if i really do that,
i feel like i'm not being myself,
and not being honest with you.
it matters.
you matter.

i really feel like, i want to lead my life with you.

i will never forget the time you won the title,gave me hopes and brought me happiness until this day.baoc pegeant day,mr ba title,are our starts and just looking at us then in the picture makes my heart melt and falling for you all over again.ilu baby.:)

dear gums,

i know it's probably going to be really tough on you tmr. but bear with it alright. if i had a choice i wouldn't want you guys to go through such pain and torture too. likewise for myself. but i guess, we can't really choose to get out of this deal. i'm freaking out now and i'm sure you guys are too.really sorry if the dentist starts hurting you tmr. my jaws and cheeks will swell up and i will hurt like crazy also. i wonder how painful is pain. and how swollen is swollen.=( i hope you will heal really quickly so that we'll both be happy really soon okay. i hope too the stuff i eat or put in my mouth won't hurt you too much either.=(